Open Question: I'm afraid of my dad (need Help and Im sorry its long)?

Okay Im not trying to make this depressing but I haven't seen my dad for a bout 3-4years seriously. But Im visiting him because i have a half brother that's turning 4 n i only saw him when he was a newborn.i don't keep in touch with him so much cause he has anger probs like he threw my sega game system and my radio at the wall when i was 7 n he also left mi on the side of the road because i didn't give him my game boy.Of course mi mom was like "what the F***! turn around and receive my F****** daughter right now!" He also used 2 beat mi w/ a belt against the wall for getting a simple math problems wrong when i was in 1st grade like whats 2 + 2. my mom disagrees with what he does cuz she also has anger issues and it was like a freakin cage battle in mi home everyday with their arguments. I just cover my ears, sob and hide someplace like below a table because he would toss, hit, and slam things and he almost threw a seat at my mom(he has never hit her before though thank goodness). They would also argue about how he would arrive home tardy at night from a bar(cause he was an alcoholic i dunno if he is anymore). He also used 2 scream in my face and say that i wasn't perfect 2 him. By the time i was 8 mi mom separated from mi dad i saw him here n there n when i 12 he called mi fat straight up when i got out of the airplane 2 visit him n of course his new wife just gotta add more wood into mi dads flame n he gets mad at mi for being fat and other random stuff. He was also drinking while driving when i was 13 and i was in the back seat n mi step mom was pregnant 2. ugh i hate him but hes my dad i gotta adore him. Recently he tries 2 invite mi 2 his home but i didn't wanna go n he bought airplane tickets behind my back n mailed them 2 mi n i was pissed n i still didn't go cause i didn't want him screaming in mi face bout random S***. N he got so mad that he was talking 2 mi step dad n he said 2 mi step dad that i should've died in a abortion just like the other baby did (which would've bin mi older sister) n that made mi SO mad i barely talk 2 im anymore after that. Now im 17 years old and im still freaked out 2 look him or even talk 2 him at every. Im going 2 live with him for about 3-4 days in mi grandparents home.I have also lost a lot of weight i've lost at least 40-50lbs since then. Oh i forgot 2 say that mi n mi dad r hispanics n him n his dad are alcoholics. And my dad was in the navy before my mom got separated and before i was chunky lol.

28 Jul 2010, 11:26 pm | click here to view more